Badly done, Emma. Badly done.

I watched 'Emma' for the first time last night. Super BRILL! I love it alot. Anyhow, today was exciting... but where to begin? Well, I'll do the quick version...

We were at school, Holly's hives got SUPER BAD! We went to the Health place at school, they told us to take her to her Doctor. Her doctor wasn't in so we ended up in the Hospital. Holly had to go another time later in the day. It was totally BAWESOME though cause I missed espanol. :D Yawp, and that's how it went down.

Anyway, other than that... the rest of the day has been... weird and unsettling. Some crap went down on Saturday and I just barely found out about it, and it makes me freakin' angry. I don't want to deal with Sam/Stephanie/Annallise/Polly/Sonia/other people DRAMA! WHY? It's at home, and I'm not. :( Gads. I told my Mum that when I come home in September to not tell ANYONE that I'll be there. I don't want anyone to know. I don't want to see anybody. I can't stand any of them anymore. It upsets me GREATLY, but I susppose that's what growing up is about. Losing everyone... feeling like friendships meant nothing...

Dang my hopeful nature. The only thing it causes me is hurt.

I've been spending too much time looking at wedding photos of other people. I don't know what's up with that... but the urge to want to have my very own sets of photos is GREAT. :sigh: Oh well, I suppose that's what dreaming is for.

Krista! I miss you loads! I can't believe you're already off to BYU! Geeez! You'll have to head Camarilloway when you're home again! :D

That's all for now, dear ones.

Love,
Sarah

I miss you.

I've found myself waking up wanting morning desert air. Instead I wake up to wet, grey, cold air. I miss it...oddly enough. Hm, I know I'd be totally bored at home and lonely... I recall that that's the reason for being here. Having people to pass the time with is nice, I'll admit to that. What I'm really tired of is this: Anything I can do, they can do better. They can do everything better than me. It's getting super, super, super annoying and really getting to me. ANyhow...

Work is working. I'm actually closing tomorrow with Jill. Should be super great... naht. My shift is apart of the afternoon/evening rush. Much difficulty there! I get all stupid flustered and can't remember anything. Gah! I'll never get the hang of it. Ever.

But I think you're impossible... I hope you prove me wrong.

So I'm practically alone! It's mildly strange... usually some cousin pops in and bombards me with information/stories/comedians. Don't get me wrong, it's nice! They all make me laugh and it's nice... I'd just like some alone time ocassionally.

I think my drawing vibes have been scared away though. I can't find them anyhere. If I forgot to pack them, I'll kill myself! AUGH! Uninspiredness is the worst. :(

What else is there to say? Work is going alright. I AM NOT A SMOOTHIE MAKER. The End! But it's all good. Money in my pocket is good. School hasn't started yet, but that should be fun. I have to go to the college at some point and discuss things with... whoever. I dunno. The less people involved the better.

I saw the Plain White T's last night. Lead singer = Fagalicious. Guitarist = Mildly cool. Bassist = Kinda cool. Drummer = TOO AWESOME FOR WORDS. I acquired a few more of their songs that I like and that's bueno.

Ahhh, for information's sake... They let my Dad go at work. How nice, huh? After being unemployed FOREVER, finally getting this job, THEY LET HIM GO. Honestly, I don't expect anything good to happen to my family ever again. Why should anything good happen to the nicest people ever? Y'know? :( :sigh: Whatever. I don't even know how to feel about anything anymore. Bring on more crap cause I can totally handle it.

BTW - Breaking Dawn SUCKS. Bella is so dramaticallylame. WORSE than in the previous 3. I dunno, it feels like Stephenie Meyer gave in and gave everybody what they wanted. Ah well.

Ending on a happier note... uhhm... I'm going camping next week. ... hm. I dunno if that's happy or not! lol

PEACEOUTLATESCOUT.
Loveth,
Sarah

Ahamz.

I'm here in Camarizz now. It's really cool... as in weather wise! Yeah. Work started today. It was interesting! Yeeeeep. I have to go buy some shoes that I can ruin! Yippy! I kinda wanna decorate them... yyyyeeeahyuuuh!

:sigh: We're supposed to go to the Sandhill tonight. I guess Hollz is inviting Curtis and Jillz will most likely invite Mike. I love being 5th wheel. It's alot of fun. Whatever. Curtis leaves in October. I may sound jealous or something... but I thought I moved to avoid such things!

ANYHOW, all of my cousins are in here hanging out watching me type. It's a little unnerving.

I hate hate hate hate hate hate it the 2nd day after He calls. D: I feel stoked afterward, then the day after I'm alright, then the second day rolls around... ARGH! I feel all depressed. Oh well! I think it also doesn't help that I had a dream about him last night. Mehhhh. MEHEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHH. :sigh:

And MAN. I totally lost my ring fom him. I am so mad right now! I can't even freaking find it, but I swear that I took it off in the bathroom and now it's gone. :( I have to buy another one.

:sigh:
I'm gonna go uhm... die now.

Loveth,
Sarah