Delicious cookies!

So, my cousin has this amazing recipe for cookies! And it goes a little something like this:

1 1/4 cup butter
2 cups sugar
2 eggs
2 tsp vanilla
2 cups flour
3/4 cup Hershey's Cocoa
1 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt

Mix wet ingredients first, then dry.
Bake at 350 degrees for 8-9 minutes.

Thought I'd share cause they are so amazingly delicious! :D

Loveth,
Sarah

Almost October...

and I want to rip my hair out.

I am so friggin' TIRED of the Northrup mentality. I can't even describe to you what that is but it is BUGGIN' the HECK outta me. Here's some examples of these minute annoyances:

Holly has about $500 in checking and almost $2000 in savings. And yet when I look up at the dry erase board over by my bed, it says: 'Sarah - $58, Sarah Gas - $60.94' It's really starting to bother the CRAP out of me. Jill and Holly are BOTH supervisors, meaning, they get paid way more than I do at work because I am NOT a supervisor. I don't have that much money!!! It's also REALLY obnoxious because they don't ever give it a rest either. They will bug you, and bug you, and bug you until you're so angry at them that you explode. THEN they stop! But once they see that you're better, they start at it again!

The other thing I'm tired of is this "Our Dad's an engineer so, he can figure ANYTHING out." "Our Dad's an engineer so he's way smart." "Our Dad's an engineer, so, I inherited that from him." WTF DOES BEING AN EGINEER HAVE TO DO WITH THE PRICE OF TEA IN CHINA?! NOTHING. Just because you're the friggin' daughter of an engineer doesn't make you better than anyone else.

Also, this: "You don't understand." "No, you don't get it." No, you're not understanding my logic." "If you think about it logically..."

And: "What are you doing?" "Why are you dressed up?" "Are you going to a dance or something?"

As well as: "Your computer sucks." "That thing is so old." "Well, this is way better than what you have."

And they say that they're afraid to tell me things because I get offended. I'M NOT OFFENDED. I'm just sick and tired of your BULLCRAP. I'm tired of the "Anything you can do, we can do better, we can do EVERYTHING BETTER THAN YOU."

However, I probably am taking this way out of proportion, but, I am just so done. I've reached breaking point. Apparently I have depression and anxiety for reals. I'm so homesick for my family. I'm homesick for my Ricardo. I'm tired of being unhappy and bored. I'm just. so. tired. I want my home.

:sigh:
Loveth,
Sarah

No, I don't want to.

No, I don't want to come into work early. No, no no, no no no nono, and some more no. No I don't want to be sick. No I don't want to go to school tomorrow. No I don't want to be here. No no no no no no no no no. NO I don't want to be reminded of you today.

But

Yes I do want to marry you.
I have for the longest while now.

Yes I do want to be at home right now. Yes I do want to cry right now. Yes I'm tired. Yes yes yes yes yes yes syeyesyeysyeyeywsyeyssywefjwkevgo;84hgwukjrvdc.

Blah.

Lovetht,
Sarah

Badly done, Emma. Badly done.

I watched 'Emma' for the first time last night. Super BRILL! I love it alot. Anyhow, today was exciting... but where to begin? Well, I'll do the quick version...

We were at school, Holly's hives got SUPER BAD! We went to the Health place at school, they told us to take her to her Doctor. Her doctor wasn't in so we ended up in the Hospital. Holly had to go another time later in the day. It was totally BAWESOME though cause I missed espanol. :D Yawp, and that's how it went down.

Anyway, other than that... the rest of the day has been... weird and unsettling. Some crap went down on Saturday and I just barely found out about it, and it makes me freakin' angry. I don't want to deal with Sam/Stephanie/Annallise/Polly/Sonia/other people DRAMA! WHY? It's at home, and I'm not. :( Gads. I told my Mum that when I come home in September to not tell ANYONE that I'll be there. I don't want anyone to know. I don't want to see anybody. I can't stand any of them anymore. It upsets me GREATLY, but I susppose that's what growing up is about. Losing everyone... feeling like friendships meant nothing...

Dang my hopeful nature. The only thing it causes me is hurt.

I've been spending too much time looking at wedding photos of other people. I don't know what's up with that... but the urge to want to have my very own sets of photos is GREAT. :sigh: Oh well, I suppose that's what dreaming is for.

Krista! I miss you loads! I can't believe you're already off to BYU! Geeez! You'll have to head Camarilloway when you're home again! :D

That's all for now, dear ones.

Love,
Sarah

I miss you.

I've found myself waking up wanting morning desert air. Instead I wake up to wet, grey, cold air. I miss it...oddly enough. Hm, I know I'd be totally bored at home and lonely... I recall that that's the reason for being here. Having people to pass the time with is nice, I'll admit to that. What I'm really tired of is this: Anything I can do, they can do better. They can do everything better than me. It's getting super, super, super annoying and really getting to me. ANyhow...

Work is working. I'm actually closing tomorrow with Jill. Should be super great... naht. My shift is apart of the afternoon/evening rush. Much difficulty there! I get all stupid flustered and can't remember anything. Gah! I'll never get the hang of it. Ever.

But I think you're impossible... I hope you prove me wrong.

So I'm practically alone! It's mildly strange... usually some cousin pops in and bombards me with information/stories/comedians. Don't get me wrong, it's nice! They all make me laugh and it's nice... I'd just like some alone time ocassionally.

I think my drawing vibes have been scared away though. I can't find them anyhere. If I forgot to pack them, I'll kill myself! AUGH! Uninspiredness is the worst. :(

What else is there to say? Work is going alright. I AM NOT A SMOOTHIE MAKER. The End! But it's all good. Money in my pocket is good. School hasn't started yet, but that should be fun. I have to go to the college at some point and discuss things with... whoever. I dunno. The less people involved the better.

I saw the Plain White T's last night. Lead singer = Fagalicious. Guitarist = Mildly cool. Bassist = Kinda cool. Drummer = TOO AWESOME FOR WORDS. I acquired a few more of their songs that I like and that's bueno.

Ahhh, for information's sake... They let my Dad go at work. How nice, huh? After being unemployed FOREVER, finally getting this job, THEY LET HIM GO. Honestly, I don't expect anything good to happen to my family ever again. Why should anything good happen to the nicest people ever? Y'know? :( :sigh: Whatever. I don't even know how to feel about anything anymore. Bring on more crap cause I can totally handle it.

BTW - Breaking Dawn SUCKS. Bella is so dramaticallylame. WORSE than in the previous 3. I dunno, it feels like Stephenie Meyer gave in and gave everybody what they wanted. Ah well.

Ending on a happier note... uhhm... I'm going camping next week. ... hm. I dunno if that's happy or not! lol

PEACEOUTLATESCOUT.
Loveth,
Sarah

Ahamz.

I'm here in Camarizz now. It's really cool... as in weather wise! Yeah. Work started today. It was interesting! Yeeeeep. I have to go buy some shoes that I can ruin! Yippy! I kinda wanna decorate them... yyyyeeeahyuuuh!

:sigh: We're supposed to go to the Sandhill tonight. I guess Hollz is inviting Curtis and Jillz will most likely invite Mike. I love being 5th wheel. It's alot of fun. Whatever. Curtis leaves in October. I may sound jealous or something... but I thought I moved to avoid such things!

ANYHOW, all of my cousins are in here hanging out watching me type. It's a little unnerving.

I hate hate hate hate hate hate it the 2nd day after He calls. D: I feel stoked afterward, then the day after I'm alright, then the second day rolls around... ARGH! I feel all depressed. Oh well! I think it also doesn't help that I had a dream about him last night. Mehhhh. MEHEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHH. :sigh:

And MAN. I totally lost my ring fom him. I am so mad right now! I can't even freaking find it, but I swear that I took it off in the bathroom and now it's gone. :( I have to buy another one.

:sigh:
I'm gonna go uhm... die now.

Loveth,
Sarah

Final

I should be doing my final. I should be throwing Ricardo's birthday present box together. I should be packing. I should be studying for my final. I should be doing lots of things right now, but I'm feeling stuck. Blaaaaah.

The Academy of Art University called yesterday. I requested information, hoping that they wouldn't call, but they did. They always do! Dag. They act like money hungry sharks trying to sell their school. It's kind of obnoxious. Anyhow, aside from that, their school looks good. There's no portfolio or reel requirement for animation there... whereas CALArts REQUIRES that you have one. Bums! Le'see... CALArts is in Valencia and AoAU is in San Francisco... hm. I kinda like San Fran better. I dunno! I don't feel like deciding yet but, I figured it would be useful to take a look.

Anyhow, Ricardo sent videos. They were all really good... accept for one. He started off sounding good but then... he looked and sounded so sad. It's making me feel really sad, but what can I do about it? Nothing. Augh. Oh well, hopefully he'll be feeling better soon.

WELL, I guess I'll get started on Ricardo's CDs. Yay!

Have a great week.

Loveth,
Sarah

We're going down, down...

Man, I am feeling stupid dizzy right now. I haven't moved or anything, and I've eaten food and consumed massive amounts of water already... so why the heck is the room spinning?

Gaaahah. I need to go do stuff, so... I'll post something interesting later.

Loveth,
Sarah

Mostly.

I have so much crap to do. I have 3 assignments to catch up on and a Final to start and finish. 'Cardo's book needs to be completed, and his package needs to be put together. I still have to pack, but before I can do that, I have to go buy some organizational boxes. Oooh. Somehow in writing, it doesn't look like that much...but for reals... it feels like a mountain to conquer. Better go acquire some climbing gear.

I start my work training on Monday August 4th. I will have been in Camarizz for 2 whole days. WOW. Then school starts on the 18th. Only 4 out of the 5 classes though (thank heaven). Le'see... i'm taking Intro to Digital Media, 3D Modeling and Animation, Spanish, and on Fridays, Ceramics. On the 8th of September my English class will start. Joy of JOYS.

You know, I was hoping that maybe they'd like to hang out with me before I leave. Sometimes I despise my hopeful nature. They're kinda making me feel like I never mattered to them. They are so consumed with themselves that they can't see anyone else. Having known them for 5-6 years, it really kinda hurts. Oh well, I should have expected something like this. As Green Day would sing it: "GOOD RIDDANCE. I hope you have the time of your life."

Moving on, I've gotten good grades on my art projects. HUH-totha-ZZAH! That made me feel pretty good inside. yeahyuuuh.

A story before I get gone:
Yesterday I was at the Post Office dropping off some mail for mi Madre. I plop the mail in and a DirecTV guy is holding open the door for me. I said thanks and started to make my way inside."Hey! That mail just fell out the bottom!" he said. I whipped around to discover... no such thing. The man laughed heartily. I looked at him with the saddest face I could muster, "You're mean." I pouted. He laughed again and I headed for our P.O. Box. "Hey wait, I have something to ask you." the man said seriously. "What?" I asked. "Have you always been that short?" he asked, grinnind evilly. "YES." I spat out, my brow furrowing."Wow! You must've been a really big baby!" he laughed even harder this time, and when he finished, he sighed and said "Well, I gotta go." and he disappeared out the door. I stood there for a minute and looked at Rachel (who had been observing this with the biggest, most ridiculous smile on her face) and my voice echoed: "WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?!"

SERIOUSLY. TRUE. STORY. I have no friggin' idea who that man was! He was dang lucky that I had had a good day in class, or else I woulda BAWLED! Ah well, it's definitely something that I will remember for the rest of my lifie!

Good night, mdears!!

Loveth,
Sarah

P.S. KRISTA HOLMES. IN CASE I DON'T SEE YOU FOR A WHILE: MY LOVE FOR YOU BURNS WITH THE INTENSITY OF ONE-THOUSAND SUNS. Please keep your blog going when you're at BYU!!! :D I will need some Psychotic Sunshine to hold me over till...whenever!

Oh what a world!

I feel better than I did yesterday. I had meltdown. NO BUENO. Buh'yeah... base, I was stressing about school, moving, and other things. This kind of thing is hard for me. Yes, I'm ridiculous but hey, it's all good! Whatevah. :D

Yeah, today I went to Single's Ward. Ahm...ahm...ahm... they are a class of strange that I just cannot compete with! Haha, maybe it's just me being negative or whatever. I just don't click with them, and that's fine by me. Yes, they're all lovely, sweet, nice people... just not my kind of people?! Maybe that's mean of me. I'unno. Anyhow... I saw my Krista!!!! That was BUUUUEEEEENNNNOOOO!

THIS SONG IS BALLIN'!
Do you hear me,I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fill the air
I put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh oohOoooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

AWWH!!! SO BALLIN'!

Anyhow,I'm gonna go talk to my cousin some more before bedtime! :D

Loveth,
sarah

You say you wanted more..

What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you.

My birthday was bueno. I got lots of nifty things from my friends, and that was nice. Also, I was treated to a bout of Stephanie's anger near the end of the night, AND horrible karaoke! YEAH! Lol. My family made my ABC book, and I love it alot. Ricardo's birthday present came in the mail today and I LOVE IT. I'll take pictures of it and upload them. Ooh, I think I'll upload pictures of my other gifts too! You know what though... I'm tired of being the photographer! I want to be the photographee! Lol. Anyhow, to those who read this blog (or if this happens to be x-posted in LJ) thanks for all the txts, calls, and gifts. You guys are awesome. :)

I downloaded a ridiculous amount of music today. ALOT of string tributes to various bands and songs. They're actually really, REALLY good! Also, acoustic versions of alot of songs too! I'll write up a list of those latahz.

Anyhow, it's Friday. I have much anger towards Friday. Gr.

I'm out!
Have a Grrrreat weekend.

Loveth,
Sarah

D:

I went to Rachel's house. We watched 'Cool Runnings' and 'Last Comic Standing'. It was nice to get out of my house... I wish we would've done something else besides sit and eat. Maybe I'm just boring to be around?

:(

Anyhow, I'm not too terribly stoked for my Birthday. Rachel says that we're going to party. I'm doubting it. :sigh: I made my moustache cake today. It didn't turn out how I wanted it to. It's too small to be turned into a 'stache. I drew one on the cake, but it just looks like a gross blob. Yeah, my birthday this year =pppbpbbbbbffff.

Something that did cheer me today was Jewellia H made me a birthday card with pineapples on it. It's really super adorable! There was a dollar inside of the card too. That was awesome!

Aright...that's all for today.
Sleep well.

Loveth,
Sarah

Fools...

Oh, is July. I'm forcing myself to write in here.

I'm tired of counting on people when I know that they WILL let me down or upset me. I know it's a problem with me. I know I should stop counting on them. Sometimes I just wish that everything would go back to the way it was. Maybe it really is all for the best? I dunno.

Last night we were making beach plans, and this morning Sam calls and says that we can't go because Stephanie wasn't going to be able to go. An hour or so later I suggested we could go to Temecula 'cause we hadn't been in a while. A little bit after that I went to the 99cent store to get stuff for my cake. We were gone for an hour and it was like... 11:45am. Stephanie came over and we went in the pool and got out at like 12:30 or so? So then I went and showered and was ready to get this show on the road at like 1:45ish? After that, Iwas able to take a nap, and called around 2:30... no answer. So I go outside and Sam and Stephanie were in the pool swimming again. They got out at 3 cause Stephanie said she still needed to shower. 4pm rolls around...then 4:30 comes and they asked me if I was ready to go. I had been ready since 1!!!!! I was pretty much over the whole mall idea and was onto fixing up my cake. Now they're all mad at me. It's not like they would have enjoyed my company ANYWAY. AUGH. Maybe I'm the mean one? I dunno.

Maybe it's all me.
Have a Great Weekend.
Loveth,
Sarah

Oh it's a ho hum day.

I couldn't figure out what day it was. Seriously! Last night my sisters had dance practice at the church, so naturally it felt like Tuesday! But then I went to see Wall-E (more on that later) at midnight, so that sorta threw me off! And then when I finally woke up this morning, it felt like Saturday! So I'm all sorts of screwed up! Lol.

Wall-E... oh man. Pixar never, ever ceases to amaze me. They remember Walt Disney's three main rules: Story, Story, Story. Something that Walt's own company has forgotten. Sad, really. Anyhow, Wall-E! Great message, wonderful story, LOVEABLE CHARACTERS! Augh! That dang robot is so expressive.. GOODNESS! It's a bloody wonder! Also... the newest Pixar Short. LOL. I was going to pee my pantalones! Seriously, so stinkin' funny!

Anyway, I can't wait till I work for Pixar. It's going to be AMAZING. :D

Man, I took a friggin' 2 hour nap... at like 6pm. Now I'm feeling mildly awake! AUGH. And it's Friday again. Bleh. SUUUUUCK.

Yeah, I think that's all! HOLMESMAHHOMES. It was good to see you yesterday! Rachel ended up not doing ANYTHING today. I can't say that I'm not surprised. She said she was sick again... oh well.

I'm out! Have a great weekend.

Loveth,
Sarah

Oh. My. GOSH.

We're watching G.I. Blues right now. Uhm, Elvis was just in the shower. :D
I WILL SLEEP SOOOOO GOOD TONIGHT!
I think I miss the male body. FORSHIZZ.

Sleep well.

:D

Loveth,
Sarah

I know it's only day three...

... but I seriously considered just giving up my art dream. I considered it! I'm kinda horrified, but now I'm scared. What if I don't make it? What if I can't do it? Everyone in this world is more talented than me! I'm tired of worrying about everything. I'm tired of these perfectionist tendancies. I HATE that I do care what people think. I DO! I don't know why the heck I do, but I DO. I came home a freakin' cried today. I hate me sometimes. Also, I hate my stuborness. :(

My bed is a mess and I'm hungry/angry.

I think I'll go do the kind of art that I like to do. Not this freakin' dumb projects with 6 fences that you have to stay in.

How can you be an artist with fences?
I DON'T THINK YOU CAN.

Loveth,
Sarah

DUDE. I WANT.

THESE THINGSS ARE BALLIN'.
http://www.livingstones.fr/index.php?page=interieure&PHPSESSID=5539d88934d1e9f6e62aba53cba49ee1

When I am married to my husband of man proportions and my height, we will have some of these laying around the house! What a trip though, am I right?! "Hey Joe, watch this!" and you go bombin into it! It would seriously weird people out, wouldn't it?

A maid! A maid? A maid. A MAID! Everybody ought to have a maid...

So, I'm feeling aright today. School was... bleh. That's way too many hours in one classroom, but whatever! My homework is FREAKIN' ridiculous. I'll take a picture of the finished product. 30 poinits of sheer horror that I might not even acquire if I screw half an inch up! (huhuhu)

D:

I'm out!

Loveth,
Sarah

You just spent a ridiculous amount of money on Art Supplies that you might not ever use again... what are you gonna do next?!

DIE.

I'm feeling REALLY crappy. This class basically took all my money that I need for Moorpark. I'm only going to be able to take like... 1 or 2 classes now. :( Gah.

School started today. Artists really are mean, snobby people. F'reals, I am not even joking. Yeah, I should give it time but... gads. GADS! I suppose I'll just say:"It's too soon to tell." Yup.

Okay, now I'm feeling freakin' pissy SO. I'm gonna go.

I hope you're all having a great week!

Loveth,
Sarah

Some oom-pa-pa music.

Mexicans, dude. They know how to party. Jammin' tunes, best food in the world. They should invite me. Then we'd party it up.

My book for school didn't come today. I'm screwed. YIPPY.

And that's all for now... unless I decide to edit this later.

EDIT: AWWWOOOHHHH, look, it's later. I'm feeling decently better, I s'pose! I dunno, I'm tired of having these weird mood swings. I know, I know! I shouldn't let myself get that way. I choose how I feel... BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAHHHH.

My hands are so dry and they HURT like the DICKENS! (what is this "dickens" anyhow?!) I am NOT loving this. I'm defNOT loving this hideous weather we're having. Where's my summer storm when I need it? The ground will smell so so so so so much better! AUUUGH!

I bought 'The Ting Tings' CD today. OH. SO. GROOD. Everyone should listen to them. Everyday. Forever. Along with 'Viva La Vida'. Jesss, it would be bueno for you all to do this.

My Disneyland pass has passed on. Let us all have a moment of silence, please.
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Kay, silence over. Hopefully it'll be a late birthday present from mi familia. At the end of August the block out dates are pretty much gone and August and September are open! Auuugh. AUUUUGH. UAUUUUAUHAUHAUUAUAUAUAUUUUGFHGHGHGHGHGHGHFHFHFHGHH. *splutters* Jyeahz...

Ahmmmm, ahm, ahm... I think that I'll be going now. I'm kinda freakin' tired and I want me some sleep forSHIZZ.

Mucho love to ya'll.

Loveth,
Sarah
Loveth,
Sarah

I hate Fridays.

I really don't care for them anymore. I used to enjoy them! Not anymore. Oh look, some arts! :D There's more at my DA account. Have a look if you should like to

do so!

Kay, so, I don't write. REALLY. I DON'T! I don't think I'm very good at it... but... I finally decided to write a poem for Ricardo's birthday.

His Smile
Spaghetti dripped out his ears
Shades perched
Sheilding brown eyes
Fauxhawk curled hair
Latin skin darkens
His smile said everything

Chucks walking
Smooth talking
Sweet words
Driving wrong ways
Lost for hours
His smile said everything

Curve, smell so sweet
Mixed summer night
Detergent heat
Strings pushed
Up, down rhythm
His smile said everything

Perfect suit
Excited eyes
Tears running
Heart racing
No long goodbye
His smile said everything

Papers crinkle
Pen ink wrinkle
Photo leafing
Crooked grin
New life begins
His smile said everything

Heart alight
Full of life
Loving laughter
E-mail schemes
Midnight dreams...
His smile still says everything.

Ahm... ahm... ahm... I know I can't write. Haha! But my Mum and Julia like it. I told Stephanie about it and she was like "Oh. That's nice." in her "You're an idiot" voice. Bleh. I'm gonna ask Rachel to read over it and see what she thinks. This isn't the final one, cause I still want more opinions on it. :siigh: I feel dorky about it, but, hopefully he'll like it. I like it alot! It illustrates most things until this point. For the record, the first line = ipod headphones. They always looked like spaghetti to me. Anyhow, I'm gonna quit talking about this... cause I'm getting nervous! Lol!

I guess while Stephanie was in Colorado they stole me some stuff from Sam's Grandparent's house. That's kinda cool! I felt mildly loved. Haha, I'm feeling jealous though. When Stephanie came over she was like "Did Ricardo ever brush your hair?" I said no, and she looked all... smuggish. :( GAH! I shake my fist at her. Whatevs though, I'll be happy with the thought that they did think about me.

SO.. I miss Kyle. Really! I DO! I was at Target the other day, I saw a CD that I had been looking for and I flailed my hands like he does when he likes something. Like, I did it without even thinking about it. :( I want to go to work again.

Anyhow, I'm feeling tired and my back hurts. I'm gonna go try and conjur up some wanting to draw. Bahaha, not likely.

Have a great weekend!

Loveth,

Sarah

GO. TO BED. BOOG.

Today was... uneventful. I used my markers finally! It's been forever since I last used them. Buuughuuuuh. Those things are just beautious. Yeeeaaah.

Uhm.

I really have nothing else to say. Maybe tomorrow I will.

Loveth,
Sarah

FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL

I'm tired of my perfectionist tendancies. D:< I mean, REALLY. When I'm driving, one little mistake and I FLIP OUTTA MY PANTS. Sam goes for DRAWING. Srsly. I all stiff and worried, then I freak out cause I don't have any good ideas. EOINHWOUFHNE. MAN. I thought I'd just throw that all out there, 'caaaaaause... I've been wanting to write a cute little story for Mi'Cardo for his birthday. I am out of ideas! I wanted to do one about 'The Princess and The Knight' or maybe some with cute lil chubs of missionaries? I'UNNO.

Anyhow, I'm missing stuff, fo'reals.
I miss my Julia! Her smiley words make me happy.
I miss my friends... PRE-BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS, I mean.
I miss my friends in general.
I miss hugs.
I miss Friday & Saturday nights spent in BEN.
I miss Girl's Camp.
I miss Mi'Cardo's smiling face.
I miss ALOT of things right now. I guess that's the sign that I need to be movin' on down the road. I'll have to pack a few things... hehe. There are things that I refuse to leave behind. They're too important.

I 'spose I'm just feeling a little down today. Augh, it's all good! I don't really miiiind... I guess. Lol! I can cope. I've just been like... reminiscing (somebody. how the heck do you SPELL that?!) today. I guess I finally get why the heck Ricardo misses High School. LOLZ! Haha, him missing HS is like me missing Girl's Camp! DUH SAARZ. That's so obvious. Why are you oblivious to everything? You're talking to yourself! CRAIG FERGUSON! YOU ARE MAKING ME DO THISSSSSS! Anyhow, for snereal, I get it now. Huhu.

:siiigh: Haha! I went to Krista's house yesterday/today. It was BUENO! I thank her for Craig and Zero time. Oh mans, I need to buy 'A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum'. SO GOOD. Luuuulz!Everyone, go buy 'Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends'. NAOW. Dag, there was something else I was going to say but I don't remember now. D: POOP. awh well... I'm outt hur, SONS.

OLIVEYOU!!!

Loveth,
Sarah

P.S. I am so lazy. Haha, X-posted at LJ.

Holmes MAH Homes!

If you can bum a car from someone, it will be you and me tomorrow in the Land of Disney. Our van is a FAG and has decided that if it gets too hot, every gauge that a van might have WON'T WORK. >:( The universe is AGAINST me. I KNOW IT. AUUUUUGH.
Try to bum a car please. Or I will cry myself to sleep every night until my pass is renewed! O_O

Dude, freals, we need to hang. I need me some psychotic sunshine in my life!

ANYHOW... before you call back, listen to your voicemail. I left the best one in the history of the Universe.

Love,
Sarah

P.S. COLDPLAY IS EPIC. THEIR NEW CD DROPS TOMORROW! We should have a listening party... O.o And hay... I don't have work today... or Wednesday... or any day after that.!!!

Get yourself the heck to bed.

Yeah, I just said... whatever the heck that might be that I said! Lol.

My cousins just called. It's becoming sort of a strange ritual that they call on Sunday night, put me on speakerphone, and thereafter proceed to shout, scream, blow my eyes out my ears, and make me laugh heartily! Haha, it's all great fun! Can't wait till I'm there.

So, my book is supposed to come between the 19th and the 1st of July. This is bad juju. I need it BEFORE the 23rd. Augh, not good. NOOOOT GOOOOOOD. Oh well, so goes MY life!

I have two letters to send tomorrow. One for Hollz (with my Blender's app in it!! I guess my job there is a done deal! HOT DOG!!!) and then, OF COURSE, one for Mi'Cardo! I was going to send this 'lil Anakin dude I found but I decided to save it till his birthday. :sigh: I don't think I will ever find a good balance between trying to be forgotten but being supportive as well. It's stupid and I hate it. Whatev, I'll deal.

I guess Jack Johnson will be having a concert near me! I WANNA GO. Coldplay too... how ballin' is that? My cousins don't like Coldplay... that freaks me out a little bit. I love Coldplay! They are the greatest thing since... sliced bread.

A'ight. I'm off to bed. E-mail day starts early. Huhuuhuhuhuh.

KRISTA. OMGOSH. WHAT THE HECCCCCKKKKK????? We need to hang.
Loveth,
Sarah

You know, they have meds for that.

My shift button is a beast.

So, what should I draw? I have ALL the time in the world now. It suckkkkkkks. WITH that many K's, forsnereal. 7 of them. When you're feeling that sucky, I had better see 7 K's. NUFF SAID.

I was out at our bitty pool today. I actually went in for a while. Weirdness, considering... I had to wear my bathing suit top thing... YEAH. No bueno. I'm still wearing it, actually. Meh, apparently I look adorable in it. I think I look more like a friggin' psychadelic bee. Baha. BUT! It's not as tight as it was last year... ooh... WEIGHT LOSS? I feel good! Haha... hahaha. Awkwardlaughter.

What should I draw? Neh? Any suggestions?

Despite my epic excitedness to move in with my cousins... I'm gonna miss it here for a while!
ALSO, an EPIC HUG SCENE STRAIGHT OUT OF A MOVIE is DEFINITELY in order... 17 months from now. Lol. BUT SERIOUSLY IT IS. O.O I'd love an epic hug moment! I might even let some bunnies slide... bunnies? Huhuhu. SO good!

I'M OUT.
Love,
Sarah

:( JORBLESS.

I have no job. Ftw, neh? I get a bank account for non-exsistent money. WAAAAOOOOOWWWW. COOLBEANS.

D: NOT REALLY.

That's all for today. If anybody would like to contact me, I'll be in a friggin' puddle on the ground somewhere in the vacinity of... who knows where.

Disneyland would be so good right now.

Love,
Sarah

Yeah, only... I care.

So, comforting a mish is hard. For seriousness. I don't ever know what to say! I can only like... assure him that everything is going to be okay! :sigh: I'm tired of failing at this! I just fail so much already, let's fail at a few more thingds. Right? Chyeah.

Today, I freakin' miss hugs. Like, REALLY. I dunno, I think it's time for one of those dreams when you can feel things. I just want some like, legit hugs! The kind where you freakin' KNOW that they care about you! Y'know?

Gosh dang, I am whiny. Sorry, I gotta get it out somewhere. That's what blogs are for, aren't they?

Anyhow, I opened up a bank account today. ABOUT TIME. The lady swindled me into getting a freakin' credit card. >:( I DON'T WANT. Apparently building credit is cool or something. I do not appreciate it. I guess my first purCHASE with it will be... that watch at Target. It's like $10. The rest of my purchases with it will be skittles. X) I'm SERIOUS. Auuuugh, I do not want.

MAH. I needs to vent some more. I'm friggin' bored and OH so lonely! I NEED SOME FRENZ POR FLAVOUR.

Love,
Sarah

KRISTA WHERE THE EFF *YEAH EFF* ARE YOU?>?>!!!?>!>>!>!<:L#W@!JN(Y@P(*&$ET@UE:

Eres tu, Mi Sol.

You are you, my sun.

I'm finding it a little bit terrifying that I know most of the lyrics to the 'Jesse y Joy' songs... but I have no friggin idea what they're talking about. Lol.

So, for sneriously, I don't feel much up to writing in this thing. I'd much rather have a friggin' massage for about six hours. Occasionally I think about that day at Disneyland when I saw that lucky sonofagun chica getting (what looked like) the best massage in the world. :sigh: Where the heck is a legit set of man hands that will massage my aches and pains, eh? Unfortunately Florida is off limits, so, I gotta find some other set of legit man hands. That won't happen. I'll just have aches and pains for the rest of my life. Haha, that's a bit extreme? GASH for snereal though... I just want a gosh dang pair of man hands to tackle my back. I'm having back issues. APPARENTLY pilates is supposed to help with that... APPARENTLY NOT. Liars and jerks.

Anyhow, I went to Enrichment Meeting with my mum tonight (cause I had no work today... more about that later) and it was... uhm... okay. The food was a'ight, but, I would have preferred something more hearty and delicious. I was feeling taco salad or some kind of pasta (SPAGHETTI AND MEATBALLS! Oh Wayne Brady, you're the love of my life). THAT would have been superior! But whatev... kabobs (SP?!FTW?!) sufficed. Kinda. NOT REALLY. However, the dessert was bueno. Mint cookies win my heart every time!

Moving on... so, workness. To lay it all out there right friggin' now without too much elaboration: I might be JORBLESS! Chyeah, I'm really hoping not, 'cause I could totally use some cash-o-la right about now for school and supplies and whatnot. But, y'know, whatever. I can handle the weight of the world! What's a couple more pounds? Oh, but first... I beg of whoever is reading this to just PRAY that I will have a job till 08/01/08. That would be the day before I move! Haha, lol! Seriously though, prayers would be EPIC! Thanks so much! :D

Well, I think that'll be all for this evening, my children. KRISTA. POST SOMETHING IN YOUR BLOG OR I WILL HAVE TO HURT YOU... but in a loving way. :D

Love,
Sarah

Merci! Et Bon Nuit!

So, freakin' today. I'm sitting over here with my guitar on my lap, checking out some tabbage. It's kinda fun. I've been trying out some Jack Johnson songs (ohhh, Jack. How do I love thee? Let me count the ways...) and some Jesse y joy songs. All of them are fairly easy... except maybe Jack Johnson tabs that need a capo. :grumble: I lost my capo! I freakin' loved that thing cause it's just dang fun/useful! Bah! Oh well. SOO, that's what I've been up to.

Julia sent me the link to an MTV article (cause apparently it's 'Twilight Tuesday or some junk... promoting the book/movie. Losers) about Stephenie Meyer being in LA on the 7th of August with... THE LEAD DUDE FROM BLUE OCTOBER! My fangirl kicked into over drive, man. Oh gosh! Yeah, the books are cheesetastic, but, I do love me some BEdward. (LOL. I still get a kick outta that cause it just makes so much sense!) ANYHOW!! So, the tickets are like $20 and they go on sale on the 21st of this month. I WANT TO GO. I tried texting Hollz about it, but she hasn't said anything yet. This concerns me greatly. What is cooler than hanging with Stephenie M. and Blue October?! NOTHINIIINININININGGGGG! Hopefully I will get to go. Then my life will be made... AGAIN.

My Mum made Chocolate cake today. I smell my face getting angry... that really suuuucks. I don't need an angry face! It is very uncool when my face is angry! Speaking of... uhm... hygiene? Er... beautification? Uhm... SOMETHING!!! My Mum also cut my hair today. Woot! I was in definite needage of a triiiim trimminy trim trimminy trim trim... chu-ree... AHAHAHA.

That is all. :D

Love,
Sarah

:sigh:

It's been an alright day. Stephanie's birthday was today. We went to her house and celebrated by having hamburgers and lots of desserts. It was cool up until Stephanie decided to call Sam and they're making plans for her to go to Colorado to meet up with him and his Mom. I dunno, I think it's a dumb idea, but I'm also jealous. Yeah, I'm jealous. I'm so friggin' lonely, but I can't do anything about it! Gas prices are too dang high to do so. Oh well. Anyhow, Stephanie's card turned out great.

I decided that for Ricardo's birthday, I'm going to write him a story. Is that silly? I thought it was a pretty good idea. I was going to put it in a storybook form... like a Faerietale (cause what's cooler than a Faerietale?!) but then I told a few people and they gave me that "Oh Saarz. You're so weird" look. Most days, I wouldn't mind getting the look. In fact, I don't really mind when people sasy I'm weird or crazy... but... it's really starting to weigh down on me. I'm getting kind of tired of it. I'm just me, dangit. So deal. :(

Anyway, yeah. I'm going to write a story and tonight I'm starting on character design. That might sound weird considering it's going to be about 2 real live people, but, I gotta figure out clothes and the like. I think it'll be a good project to start working on. Hopefully I can get a good chunk done before school starts. That would be cool.

Man, please keep you fingers crossed for me going to Disneyland before my pass expires. 'Cause when it expires, I won't be able to go til December. As many of you... (?) know Disneyland is like... my home. I really REALLY want to go.

Alright, I think that's all for right now. I'll update tomorrow. :)

Thanks for reading.

Love,

Sarah

Oh what...

Man, I'll read other people's blogs and they all seem insightful, well written and most times, "deep". Mine are just angst-ridden blobs of stupidity. :sigh: Saarz, it's time to accept that you're an idiot and just get on with your life! If people don't like it then they can leave! The ones who stay are the ones worth keeping. Well, the ones who put up with your crap are the ones worth keeping. In order to keep them I suppose you have to deal with their crap too. Good thing I like crap. Lol. But seriously, I'm glad that people do put up with me. It makes me wonder what parts of me are "put up with"able.

I found that piece of tupperware I was looking for. The tupperware that the chinese food from Maria came in. Unfortunately it had been sitting with the lid on it since Tuesday. That sucker was smelling ranker than a skunk who'd just had 5 helpings of beans and quite possibly cabbage. I washed it and now it's smelling beautious. I hope you'll excuse my use of 'rank'. I'm definitely a hillbilly, woot. woot. Just another thing that people put up with.

My sisters are watching "One Night With The King". I definitely liked the movie, until I saw the gal who plays Esther in a commercial for the ABC Family show "Greek". She went from a noble and brave heroine, to some skanky whore. Wow, that's so awesome, isn't it? Not really. I know that they're just characters that an actor/actress plays, but sometimes it's just disheartening.

My leg itches. I need to put these songs on my computer. Where's my camera. What is your face? Who do you miss? What are you doing? WHY is it like this?

Well, I think I shall be off now. Mucho love to the ones who put up with me and have stuck with me through my insanity. I love you more than I could ever express with words.

Love,
Sarah

... I thought...

yesterday was the 5th. Haha, I really have lost it!

I feel a tad bit better today. Sleeping usually helps and uhm, today explains yesterday quiiiiite nicely. Hurray for that time of the month, freaking out, and scaring your missionary. IT'S WONDERFUL.

No. Not really.

Apparently we have lots to do today. Or so says my sister who turned into my mother for a brief moment and I wanted to stab her. Auugh. We have to finish cleaning out Ben (Ben = BIN. A giant one, we just call him Ben because... we name everything. Shut up. Don't look at me like that) cause he's being taken back. Haulaway is coming to haul him (oh goodness) away 'cause we can't afford him anymore. You're probably thinking it's weird for me to be somewhat sad by this. Well, I'm not sad, I'm pretty much PUT OUT about it. Alot of good times were had in Ben. Alot of laughs, lots of movies, ice cream, games, and the like. I'm kinda heartbroken by it because... moving all of this stuff out of Ben makes me feel like we're going to move again. I know I'm off to Camarillo at the beginning of August but I'll be back. I really don't want to move away from Hemet. I don't think I could stand another move. I've moved... 20 times in my life. Soon to be 21, but that one won't be so bad... ANYHOW.

Ramblings, I know.

Man, I'm feeling kinda drained. I want to sleep some more.

Loveth,
Sarah

Feeling crappy.

I don't want to draw. I have no inspiration. I feel like a pile of hot steaming CRAP right now. Hurting kinda bad. I don't want to worry anymore. I'm feeling put out. I'm missing him right now and feel like he doesn't even know. I understand that he cares. I do understand that... but I need him to understand how I'm feeling right at this point.

Yeah, I cried today. I'm feeling all stressed out about everything. Life, moving, family, money, Ricardo. Feels like everything is weighing down on me, gnawing at me. I need to get away for a while.

What is so wrong with deciding what I want now? Can you tell me what is wrong with that? Can't a person just love someone? Why the heck not.

I'm just so frustrated right now.

I'm gonna go lay down and hopefully pass out.

Loveth,
Sarah

She Said, Endlessly.

I just got home. 14 hours is RIDICULOUS. Just thought I'd share that with ya'll.

Anyhow, Rachel saved my life and banned me from Graduation. :D YAY! I guess I'll just go hang at her house next weeeeeeek after worrrrrk. I duuuunnno why I aaaaam doooooing thiiiiiiis. Yeah, I'll celebrate her Graduation at her house. Most likely with Josue. Happy happy, joy joy.

Man, I never have anything really interesting to say in here. Ever. I need to get my scanner on here so I can just upload arts and crap. Cause arts and crap is good. Also, it's mildly interesting. Huzzah!

So, I've started my birthday plans. I'm not doing anything and that makes me kinda sad. Mi familia is BROKE, so, I get cake at my Grandma and Grandpa's house the Sunday before my birthday. Oh, just for the record, My Birthday = July 9th. A WEDNESDAY. Wednesdays = work days. Anybody wanna come visit me at work? Or maybe we could all go to the beach or something? IN Camarillo? XD That would actaully make me EXPONENTIALLY happy! Ah well, I need to stop this so called "bumming stuff out of people". Whatever. Probably the thing that I am most sad about is the fact that I had planned to do a "Drive in Theatre" but you had to make your own car out of a box! Unfortunately, zero fundage = zero projector. Ah well, maybe for my 21st birthday? Not next year, but, the year after? Yeah, maybe!

Somebody, please come up with a legit name for my bike gang. Thanks.

GOODNIGHTMORNING.
Loveth,
Sarah

P.S. Is Tuesday, and I'm not doing anything... HINTNTNNNTNTNTNNNNT!

June is bustin' out all over!

Mwaha, I got my amp today. About dang time, I think! He's been gone for almost 7 months, meaning... I should've gotten this sucker about 7 months ago! GADS! But I have it now, and it's way more fun to play electric guitar. YAY!

Today we're having FHE at my Grandma and Grandpa's house. Oh, and the missionaries are supposed to come have dinner there, AGAIN. Poor Kunkee. The last ward member's dinner he gets to have before going back home is with MY WHOLE FAMILY. Poor guy, man. Poor guy.

Hmm, I think that's all for now. I think I'll have one last go at Jack Johnson's "Constellations" and then I'm going to rest for a while. Hopefully Hollz and Jillz will call. Dag, I can't wait to live there. Oh McGRAAAABz! I should ask them about visiting Krista at teh BYU's during schoolish next year... I WILL! :D ALSO, KRISTA. I submit that we go to Malibu. :D FUN FUN FUN!!!!

Loveth,
Sarah

Sarah, take your shoes off.

Yeah, I need to. I went and bought myself those shoes and Target. They make me feel happy, and heaven knows I need a little more happiness in my life! Maybe I could be happier, but I just don't accept it? Who knows. BUT! My shoes are great! They're sandals and they have those huge jewels on them! Everyone is gonna think that they're ugly, but, they're me! I like them anyway!

We went to a baptism this evening for Sam's little sister Jewelia. It was good. Stephanie tried to say hi or something, but I ignored her. I'm absolutely tired of those two lovestruck IDIOTS. Man, I'm even tired of Rachel and Josue! I can't wait until their men leave on their missions. WHY, you might ask? Cause I won't friggin' be here. They can suffer at work and school by themselves. I'll be too busy to be concerned. Ahaha. >:(

Anywho... uhm. Yeah. That was all. I think I need to not be so negative or jealous. 'Cause that looks a bit like jealously? I dunno. Maybe I am jealous. Feh. I don't like it one bit.

I'm out for the evening! Have a great Sunday!

Loveth,
Sarah

"The Ninjas are deadly and silent...

... and also unspeakably violent. They speak japanese, they do whatever they please..."
Snacktime with the BareNakedLadies. Who woulda thought?!

Anyhow, Krista must know that I have a weakness for surveys/fill ins/memes or something... dangit.

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)Lynn Scott
2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)Idunno Clyde
3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)Norsa
4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Purple Panda
5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)Rene Ft. Irwin
6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Green Water (. I LIKE WATER, OKAY??!?!)
7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)Saup (looks like SOAP)
8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie) Mint-n-Chip Oatmeal Cookie
9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name) Bandit Amanda
10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)Addidas Moves 3 Musketeers (o.O)
11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on) SunnyWheezy California (We had two cats. The orange cow looking one was Sunny, the black one was Wheezy. I moved alot when I was younger so I consider the house that we spent 6 years in the place I grew up!)

Anyhow... I'm gonna get gone! I want to... shower? Maybe? Maybe not. XD

Loveth,
Sarah

P.S. Krista, I'm planning a Disneyland trip. CALL ME.

Before I go to bed...

I just wanted to share this wonderful clip from "Meet Joe Black".

:)

'Night.
Loveth,
Sarah

So, I'm convinced...

... that Asians just do it better.
As in, THE WAY THEY DRESS!

They're these tiny little petite people, and they just dress FABULOUSLY.
They even accessorize fabulously!
This makes me ultimately jealous.
I'm 5foot 1inch... and I dress like a sack of potatoes.
IF IT WEREN'T FOR MY LARGE BOOTY AND THESE RIDICULOUS CURVES...
Gr.
I want somebody to come dress me for a change.
I WANT A STYLIST.
Where can I buy one of those?

What would the music be like without sound...?

Man, somebody should kick me off the computer... oh wait... they can't! IT'S MY COMPUTER!!! MWAHAHAAHAHAHA! But seriously, I should go do something SLIGHTLY productive. I'm feeling lazy.... and SUPER uninspired. I don't appreciate that, nope, not one bit. Oh well, I guess I could finish Ricardo's letter? Myeah, I guess I will... maybe I will work on some drawings? Even though I am... UNINSPIRED!!

HOLY...

SAVED BY WEENIE ROASTING!!
Loveth,
Sarah

A Wheezy Post, neh?

Well, I suppose so. X) It's much easier for me to post stuff in LiveJournal, but that's only because I've had an LJ for... 4 years? I'unno! ANYHOW!

I'm at work and Elmo's World is on... it's freakin' scary. Fo'real. Unfortunately it's the kind of scary where it's so scary that you can't look away. O.o I hate that kind of scary. It freaks me out. AS IT SHOULD. Elmo's voice is freakin' obnoxious. WHY does he always have to say "Elmo loves to this..." or "Elmo loves to that..." WHY can't he just say 'I like to do this or that' or WHATEVER. Weird red monster thing...

ANYWAY, the weekend was mildly decent. Friday was interesting AT BEST. X) It was good to have Krista there or I really would have lost my mind. Freakin' couples... FREAKIN' COUPLES. I dunno how to resist their weird love powers that disgust me so. Mayeb it IS jealousy? WHO KNOWS!!! But what I do know is that a relationship isn't ALL physical. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE TOUCHING AND KISSING THEM EVERY DANG OPPORTUNITY YOU GET! AYYYYE CHIHUAHUA!... okay, rantage OVER! Aside from that, ice skating was fun. WE SHOULD ALWAYS ORDER 12 WATERS WHERE EVER WE GO FROM NOW N HENCEFORTH AND FOREVER (xD) WHATEVAH!

Alright... I think I'll be going. I have a mountain of art to veiw on DA. Lalalalala... and I need to email someone about shoes for the dance festival... OOOH! ANDNNNNNND! Look for my bike. Yes.

Loveth,
Sarah

Oh well, I suppose.

So I have my sketch blog, my Disneyland Blog, and this one... this one is SUPPOSED to be used for ARTS, so, I guess I'll just upload some stuff right now! I didn't know it was so easy to do so... :D.

PSH! Well that took forever today. MORE tomorrow. I'm freakin' tired and I have to go to work. BALALALAHAAHHAA.

Oh Saarz.

Well, I'd definitely post some doodles and whatnot, but... I'm not at home! Blast. One of these days I'mma have to remind myself to do so... the 'so' being... uploading some doodles. Behehe. I'm off to Disneyland tomorrow with teh familia. That should be super exciting! Maybe pictures will make their way over here... we shall see.

Loveth,
Sarah

Well HAY!

I'll definitely be updating this blog! Mostly with doodles and all sorts of that bueno stuff! :D I MIGHT also use it for Disneyland trips! WOOT. Hehe, I'm not really talking to anyone specifically but... Idunno. X) ANYHOW! See ya'll around VERY soon.

Mucho Love.

Loveth,

Sarah